In the 3 years since I've been out of college, (holy gross, where did those 3 years go!?) I've done so much growing as a person, but at very small stints, a little here, a little there. But now, now I feel like life is catapulting me in my dream direction. And I know, I should NOT be complaining. And honestly, I'm not, not really, I'm just taking this inventory of where I am, what I need to do to accomplish everything, and how blessed I am to have the opportunity to do it. I'm one lucky girl. I just want to make sure that I take my time saying goodbye. I want to take as much time as I need to spend with family and friends, especially given what is going on with certain members of my family. I don't want to rush my life, you will not catch me "wishing my summer away", cause hell, I love summer and I plan on milking as many free, homemade meals off of my parents that I can between now and August! 
(Even if my brother isn't as excited about family stuff as I am. Haha!!)
But that too is going to be precious, he is heading to college in NH this Fall after I leave for DC. Crazy to think the Stack children are going to be scattered along the East Coast!
So I'm trying to take each day for why it is, complete with its challenges and joys. I'm trying to make sure I'm being kind to myself and taking care of everything without my "people pleasing-perfecting" ways. I'm trying to be vulnerable and authentic, happy and emotionally available. I'm trying to just be Elizabeth. I had a nice chat with myself last night in the car, discussin why on God's green earth I decided to run a half marathon, what I think grad school is going to do for me, what my goals are. I know that last statement seems weird, but opening up about my intentions and expectations, even if only to myself, was a tremendous help. It helped bring me back to where I am, so I could see all I want before me. This chat also allowed me to give myself permission to want what I want, only for the reason that I want them. I don't need any other reasons I run a half marathon, get a Ph.D. or anything else. If I want it, I'm going to get it.
So do you ever have a nice pep talk with yourself in the car? Or do you have another way of centering yourself and your dreams? Let me know! I'm interested in all the ways people "talk" to themselves.
Happy Friday everyone!
~Elizabeth
I think a half-marathon is a totally reasonable goal :) You got this!
ReplyDeleteI have pep talks with myself all the time, particularly when I'm in surgery. My techs are getting good at telling when I'm talking to myself vs talking to them at this point.
Honey, I love that you're pursuing your dreams. Lord knows that not everyone can do this, and many people often don't even know how to begin even if they want to. You had an honest talk with yourself, and helped to sort of lay some foundational goals. That's good. Maybe dreams come first, then the more you think of them, they begin to take some sort of shape, and then one day before you know it....they become goals. Something to aim for. I'm so glad for you. It's a continuation on the road to a happy life. Keep movin'...and inspiring others along your journey.
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